Blonde hair, don't care...

Pretending would be wrong...

i can no longer pretend that I'm happy in this skin. I can no longer uphold that perfect, happy, and modest phasod. I cannot do it. This Sickle Cell shit kicks my ass. How long can I go on? I can't stand the pain. I can't shake the infuriation. I can no longer keep this all inside, I feel as if I can break at any moment. It's hard seeing myself in this mind state, but I can't hold it in....

Dear God, please help me. Save me from what I've become.

Keri Hilson Tops...

Keri Hilson hit number ONE on the Top R&B charts, and number FOUR on the top 200. That's exciting news! She's amazing. She was stunning at the Virgin Megstore and very laidback.

I don't have much to say in blogs lately. I have just been relaxing. My mind has been elsewhere lately. I am striving to stay out of the negative gutter. It doesn't always work, especially when you don't feel good about yourself...

I hope everyone who reads my blog has been well!

Kanye West and Kid Cudi.

These two boys have this.....simply stunning song that I can't get out of my head. I heard it while I was watching MTV's Taking The Stage.





I'm not nearly amused by Kanye West at all, but this song....is outstanding. I would like to commend him for throwing Kid Cudi on the track. I think i have a child-like crush on the dude. I just really wish Kanye West would denounce himself from trying to be different. He used to be different, within reasoning, but now he should just choke on a spork.


"My god sister gettin' married by the lake,
but I couldn't figure out who I wanted to take.
Bad enough that i showed up late,
I had to leave before they even cut the cake.
Welcome to heartbreak."